December is an emotional month for me. It is my time to take personal inventory. I evaluate what my goals are, what my hopes and dreams are for the coming year, and what I've made of myself in the current year. I think about loved ones that have gone on, and wonder if they would be proud of me and the choices I've made. Which always leads to the bigger questions.. Have I been all that my father in heaven wants me to be? How can I improve? What more can I learn? What can I help other people learn? the list goes on and on.
2009 Has been a year of assessment for me. I've never been the type to go forward aimlessly without a goal, but rather one that thinks through things, plans them out in my head, and then whole heartily goes forward.
I'm very fortunate to have the family that I do. My family is always there supporting me, catching my back when I fall, and loving me when I need love. I was involved in my first auto
accident this year. Which was pretty scary for me given the severely of the accident. My brother, Rusty and my sister Lori were there in a matter of minutes to help get me to the hospital and deal with things at the scene. I was overcome with the love I felt from my siblings. It was then I understood why Satan is trying so hard to rip families apart. Family is constantly giving us love that the savior would give us if he were with us, and helping us understand our divine potential. I mean how many brothers do you know that would take their sister to the hospital and due to a broken arm help button her pants and learn all about her menstrual cycle?! Then when I finally got to a mirror I realized I had mascara running down my face. I asked him why he didn't tell me I looked like a joker, and he responded "Why you so serious" bringing humor into the situation is always a plus!
I don't want to focus on the negative things, but I notice them because they are what help mold us into who we need to be. Trials really stink, but they are what helps us become what god intends us to be. I've been a very blessed and fortunate young lady, and am reminded constantly that the Lord is by my side, and wants me to succeed in whatever challenge he puts in front of me. No matter how challenged we feel, we must know that the Lord never sent us here to fail. When we feel that the Lord is tearing us apart, just know he is creating you. He will always be here for us, and I've found that over and over again in my life.
I hope we will always remember why we celebrate Christmas, and it is not about that fancy computer we wish for, that amazing camera that takes 8 pics in one second flat. It truly is about our savior Jesus Christ. I hope when we are all gathered with our families we will remember him, and his love for all of us.
No matter what 2010 has in store for us, may we all go forward with faith in him, and praise to him for our never ending blessings.
Much love to you and yours this holiday season.
Merry Christmas!
